Missing

I have not blogged for weeks and I really feel sad about it. I have not even checked my mails and offline messages. I've been eager to do all of these but I have been so pre-occupied with other things. Coping with all the new responsibilities as the head of the family is not easy. Work, too has been both very serious and boring these past days. I really miss the whole internet...

Salary Woes

It really is frustrating when you do your work very well and you dont get paid right for it. You always come an hour earlier than your scheduled shift to make sure you are able to check documents and new processess for review. You are never absent at work. You try to file Leave of Absense a month before it. You follow company policies and prcedures strictly. These are never appreciated yet I don't say anything about it because this is how dedicated I am with work but to not get paid correctly??! And for this to happen not just once and when you need the money the most??! This is too much! Just too much!

I don't expect the company, or the management, or the bosses to appreciate what I do. I don't expect any compliments or rewards from all my efforts because I know that this is my job and this in necessary. What I only ask is for me to receive the salary pay that I deserve, that I signed for, that I worked for.

I felt so upset early this morning when I arrived in the office. I received an email about employees' salary disputes being processed (updates). I was expecting to see my name on the list of those who filed disputes but to my dismay, my name was not in it. It really feels bad because I need the money for my brother's college tuition fee. Now I would have to find other ways to have money for this enrollment.

Another test from God...

Iron Man -- At Last!

We watched the movie Iron Man last Friday.. I know it has been weeks since it was first shown on theaters but last Friday was the only day I had the chance to watch it. Now I know why movie-lovers, even critics, loved it.. It was really a good movie.. It was worth the price, the time and the wait.. LOL.. The technology and effects they used were really marvelous... So much we loved it that we finished the credits.. I can't wait for the sequel now.. haha

Blog No More??!!

I know, I know.. I have not blogged for days.. I have not been writing things with sense.. or things that might update you on how I am doing now...There are two reasons behind this. The first, and most impotant is, they have blocked Blogspot.com in the office where I blog most of the time (I usually do it during lunch and break times). The IT dept also blocked many blogging-related sites that I always visit and this pisses not only me but other bloggers in the office.. Grrrr.. We can't really blame them, though. They're just doing their jobs. The second reason is I always go home to Pampanga on my days off. We don't have internet access at home since we dont really need it there and I dont go to internet cafes that much when I'm there because I want to spend my time with the family.

Those two are the major reasons why I have not been blogging, visiting sites, and dropping entrecards.. The minor reasons are proxies where also blocked and our access to other computer programs were also restricted.. This is really sad.. My officemates are not happy about this, too. They joke and say that one of these days, we might just all be resigning because we simply are bored.. Because there are no more movies to watch.. No more online streaming.. No more online games.. No more blogging.. No more network societies..No more internet access.. LOL

I will still be blogging, though.. I'm sure my techi officemates will still come up with work-arounds, as always (harhar)... And I, too, will find one.. LOL... :D

Lakbayan Meme

I got tagged by Big-Eyed Gal

My Lakbayan grade is F!

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out at Lakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

LOL! My Lakbayan grade is F? What the !!?? haha.. Well, there's realy nothing to wonder about that. As much as I want to, I really can't and don't travel a lot.. This test simply tells me that I need to get to know and visit more places in my home country.. Haayyy.. I hope i get the chance to..soon.. :)

Show me how much of the Philippines have you travelled? Add your links here:

1) mind bubbles, 2) may, 3) VANITY KIT, 4) SOMETHING PURPLE, 5.) A DETOUR, 6) Big Eyed Gal, 7) The Chronic Shopper 8) My Inner Thoughts Revealed 9.) Your link here

I wanna know how much you travel Louraine and KCee

How Are You Feeling Today?

Thanks Marie for tagging me with this :

Rules:

1. List 6 things that describe yourself today.
2. Add your blog to the list. Feel free to add all your other blogs.
3. Tag other online friends you know.

*1. Excited!
>>>>>>> I'm going home to the province later for my two-days off! YEY!!
*2. Happy!
>>>>>>> Because I will be able to spend my two days with my family..
*3. Sleepy
>>>>>>> I woke up at 1 am to prepare for my 5 am shift.. *yawn*
*4. Bored
>>>>>>> I'm not enjoying my work today..
*5. Neat
>>>>>>> I'm in my semi formal outfit.. not in the usual jeans and t-shirt.. LOL
*6. Hungry
>>>>>>> 'Haven't eaten lunch yet..

Links: Creative In Me Little Peanut Me and Mine Pea in a Pod Sugar Magnolias A Slice of Life Simply Jen Jenny Said So This and That We are Family Mommastuff MoMieSpace Being a wife & mom ChatnChill moms..... check nyo A Simple Life Mommy's Little Corner My Life's Rollercoaster Ride My Inner Thoughts Revealed

I'm tagging Eda , Inaj , Jhong, and Mommy Ruby

Happiliest

I was reading the newspaper earlier when this particular article caught my eyes:

"ASHTON KUTCHER, WORLD'S HAPPILIEST MARRIED MAN"

Yes, you read it right, happiliest NOT happiest. What's 'happiliest'?, I asked myself. I really got intrigued so I opened the entertainment section and read through the rest of the article.It was about the interview with Ashton Kutcher, Cameron Diaz's leading man in the film "What happens in Vegas".

Ashton tells the press how happy he is as a married man. He said he never really thought he would ever get married. He further said that he saw his parents go throught divorce and thought, "this is not something that anybody shoud do. Why put a legal document on top of a
good relationship?".

The article also said that when Ashton started going out with Demi Moore in 2003, Holywood watchers believed that their relationship will not last long because of their 15 years age gap. But to the surprise of all, they got married in 2005, by all accounts, happy with each other.

What was really touching about the interview was the part when Ashton said,

"I knew she was the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I am the HAPPILIEST--I think I just invented that word--married guy on the planet."

Isn't that sweet? Knowing that your partner feels that way seems very romantic.. And to hear him say that on national television and see it printed on international newspapers and mags? It's like him letting the whole world know that you are a dream come true to him, that because of you, he will be happy the rest of his life...

Ashton said that he got his ideas about marriage from Rabbi Yehuda Berg in Babblah Centre in Los Angeles where he and Demi and other holywood celebrities are studying.

While men treats sex as an apex of a relationship and women are focused on marriage, "everybody is missing what happens afters that," he said.

"It's like if you got hired at a new job and you shwed up and didn't wok, you'd probably get fired pretty quickly," Ashton said. "Once they get married, people think , 'all right, the work is done', when really, you just got the job..." -- a very good point, right?

Which Emoticon Are You?

I got this from Tickle!

Raine, the emoticon that represents you best is the Smiling Face

What's up, smiley? Somehow you just always seem to find a way to turn that frown upside down. Your upbeat attitude and friendly demeanor brighten up any room, including your favorite chat room.

Like your classic emoticon counterpart, you're a staple on anyone's list. Boring days and sleepless nights are far more bearable when you're online to chat. Whether you're shooting the breeze, catching up, or giving out advice, you can cheer up anyone on the other side of the conversation. So keep lightening the mood, making new friends, and bringing smiles to other folks' faces. After all, it's just so natural for you!

So, Which Emoticon Are You?

For My Mom

Today I would like to pay tribute to my bestfriend and my number one fan, to the most special woman in my life, my mom. I know she won't be able to read this because she's not into the"internet world" but I would still want to allot a space in here for her..

Ever Dearest Mommy,

Happy Mother's Day! :)

Thank you for the all the love and care you have unselfishly and unconditionally gave us.

Thank you for the time and patience you dedicated to us.

Thank you for the support and words of wisdom you have given and shared to me.

Thank you for all the life's lessons you have shared and patiently taught me.

Thank you for the crying shoulders and encouragements you have given me whenever I needed one.

Thank you for the warm hugs and kisses, too...

I could never thank you enough for all of these and for all the other things you have given up for our happiness. I hope by posting this and thanking you here, I will be able to express my deep gratitude and love for you. I regret that I will not be able to spend this special day with you because time and distance won't permit it, but I promise to make it up to you.Ma, I want you to know that I am very grateful that you are my mom and that you raised me up the way God has intended and I myself is proud of that and I'd like you to feel that same way.There are so many things I would like to tell you but I wouldn't want to bore you and my readers here (LOL). MOM, I will never ever forget all of these for as long as I live.. Thank you and I LOVE YOU!

Sick

Im sick. I hate it. And I hate it more because it's flu. It makes me feel really uncomfortable. I sneeze all the time, I feel feverish, my eyes are drowsy and I've got a running nose.. Oh! I just hate it!

Ever since I was a kid. I have always hated being sick. I have asthma and eveytime it attacks me, they always had to bring me to the hospital. They would give me medicines and inhalers. Doctors would tell my mom not to feed me with these foods, not to let me do these and that, not to let me go here and there.. Arrgg! It just felt all insane as a kid.. How was I suppose to enjoy my childhood? How was I suppose to feel about it?

Later on, I understood that it was all for me, too. It was for my own health. If getting sick did something good to me, that's taking good care of myself. I hate being sick. I hate being a prisoner of your own body, not being able to do the things that you want to do.

Now that I'm working and have greater responsibilities in life, I hate getting sick even more. Loosing a day at work means loosing a day's income, and that I can't afford.

Good thing is, it's my off. I have two days more to get well... Haaayys... I hope I get better by Sunday..

20 Questions Tag

Thanks to Jojo for tagging me with this..

Here are the Rules for this tag :

Remove one (1) question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag eight (8) people in your list. List them out at the end of this post.

1. At what age do/did you wish to marry?

... hmmm... Around 25 or 27..

2. Have you ever shoplifted?

... never... and will never do...

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

... just one... One round trip around the world... harhar (nothing in particular now..)

4. Which part of you do you hate the most?

... in what terms?

5. When you encounter a sad moment, what do you do?

... i've written an entry about that here.. : i cry, i pray, and i write..

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?

... My faith in God and my family

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

... i'll save, invest, shop, and tour.. hehehe

8. What do you love the most about last year (2007)?

... I met someone special.. :)

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you:

... Nice. Thoughtful. Friendly (thanks for the concerns and comments ate Jojo ^-^ )

10. How do you cope with boredom?

... most of the time, i sleep.. harhar.. if not, i watch movies, surf the net, chat and write stuffs.

11. Till now, what is the moment that you regret the most?

... can't think of any at the moment.. i guess, i dont have regrets about my life after all.. ;)

12. What type of person do you hate the most?

... plastic!

13. What is your ambition?

... can i say, get rich? harhar..have a happy, simple and contented family life one day.. ;)

14. If you had one wish, what would you wish for?

... world peace! (boring? hahaha) ok, i think, happiness for everyone.. and for myself, too. :)

15. How did you celebrate New Year?

... with a bang!!! unfortunately, it did not last long. i had to go to work. (huhuhu..)

16. What has been the craziest thing you've ever done in your whole life?

... falling in love... ain't it crazy? a lot of people thinks so.. (lolz)

17. What do you look forward to in 2008?

... it's the middle of the year now.. hmmm.. how about a month-long vacation (in my dreams! lolz)

18. If your life is a song, what title best fits it?

... i'm not sure there is a song... let's say, I will survive...? :b

19. What is your inspiration in life?

... My family and knowing God created me for a good purpose.. :)

20. Which world would you want to live in - Love without Money or Money without Love?

... this is hard..both money and love makes things alot complicated and life hard to deal with.. harhar.. but i'd say, Love without Money.. ;)

Who got tagged: Dana, Elliot, Genny, Jherson, KCee, Mars, Tanya, and Wendy

Terrifying Early Morning!

I really got terrified early this morning on the bus on my way to work. I was seated on the middle part of the bus, near the door. I was wondering why passengers from the back were moving to the front seats. They were whispering to each other but since it was not like me to eavesdrop, I just shrugged and did not mind it. A minute later, a man sat beside me. I looked at him and saw him glance back to where he was originally seated, that is, at the back side of the bus. I then heard him say to another man, "That guy behind me, the one in gray shirt, he's carrying a knife." I got nervous upon hearing that. Just imagine what that guy could do. "Is he alone?Does he have companions?What is he going to be up to?", I asked myself. I wanted to glance into the man's direction so I can take a good at him but I was afraid he might see me...I calmed myself and whispered a short prayer. All of a sudden, the man wearing a gray shirt started to shout. All of the passengers looked back and we all saw him. He was cursing while playing with a knife in his hand. It was terrifying! The conductor tried to calm the guy down and he did..Or so we think...

Some of the other passengers started to move closer to the door, Some even got off the bus in terror. We were all silent for a few minutes when the man started to shout and curse again. When the bus stopped again on the loading and unloading area, I quickly got off the bus and decided to walk the rest of the way to the place where the company shuttle will pick up us. Whoa! What a horrifying way to start the day!

On Family and Responsibilities

How important is your family to you? How far can you go for them? What are you willing to sacrifice for their happiness?


Why am I asking these questions? Recently, I became, officially, the head of the family. YES, you read it right and NO, my parents aren't dead. For some reasons, my dad just can't work anymore and my mom, a plain loving housewife and a mother to us, is unemployed. My older brother, the eldest among four kids, lives now with his own family. So being next to him, needless to say, I have to take over all of the responsiblities. All by myself, alone...


It's not as if it's something new to me because since I was young, my mom has always and consistently reminded me of my duties and I have religiously tried to do everything to be called responsible. It's just that this is more pressure to me since they would be fully dependent to me now.

Two years ago, two weeks after graduation, I got my first job and started to help supporting my family's needs. In the beginning, I only gave a partial of my salary to my mom. But because of the increasing prices of our daily necessities, I felt like there was a need for me to give more. I started supporting my 2 younger brothers' college studies, from tuition fees, to allowances, and other to stuffs that needs to be paid concerning their schooling. I also was obliged to pay the electric bills and share extra money for the groceries because dad's income has decreased. In the long run, I gave almost all of my salary to mom leaving myself a partial of it for my allowance (money I could use till I receive my next pay).


People would say my family is lucky to have me, one responsible and good daughter and a sister...And this really makes me think... Hmmm.. They ought to build me a monument or a statue of some kind and reserve a day to pay respect to me.. LOL


Kidding aside, sometimes, I get sick and tired of all these yet I just can't give up. They need me and I just can't let them down. I love my family so much that I am willing to always go the extra mile for their happiness and wellness. Indeed it is a great responsibility, but to think, it is also one great priveledge to make other lives worth living and to show these people your gratitude for all the love that they give you. They are lucky to have me and I, as well, am is lucky to have them. They're of the highest priority to me, aside from God of course. Anything that concerns them, concerns me. I would do anything, even give up my own happiness, for them. Because to me, their happiness, their wellness, is mine, too...

I just pray God gives me more strenght to carry all these...

Haircuts

Breakup and Learn

New 7 Wonders of the World

Last Night I saw on the news that the Puerto Princesa Subterranean River National Park better known as the Underground River located in Palawan is one of the so-may beautiful worl spots running to be decalared as one of the New Seven Wonders of the World.

The Philippines is undergoing through a lot of crisis. Hearing this on national television somehow makes a Filipino smile and feel proud about it (I myself am).

The Underground River in Palawan has already attracted so many tuorist around the globe and has helped promote our tourism. It's main attraction is, of course, the navigable underground river where you'll find stalactites and stalagmites and the limestone karst Mountain Landscape.

Another entry from our country is the Tubbataha Reef in Sulu Sea which has been previously declared as a World Heritage Site by UNESCO. This is famous not only for its large marine sanctuary but is also a popular site for sports divers.

Currently, the Underground River and the Tubbataha Reef ranks number 128 and number 8 respectively. We should, as Filipinos, be proud of this. Let's support our entries. Let's vote for them.

I Am Grateful

Princess Vien Tagged me with this..

1. I am grateful that I was given the chance to exist, live and love.

2. I am grateful for having a wonderful family.

3. I am grateful for every blessings and graces God has showered me and my family.

4. I am grateful for the friends and loved ones I have and who treasure and love me in return.

5. I am grateful that I have a nice job and that I am able to blog here.. LOL

Start Copy

*In order to be able to achieve and maintain happiness we need to, actively, be able to do two things:

1. Complain and then let go (Dump the baggage, the roadblocks to happiness.)

2. Express Gratitude (The open expression of gratitude promotes happiness.)

After all, everyone has something to be grateful for and/or something to complain about. If you would like to take the challenge, please follow the appropriate link and do so: “Are You Grateful?“, “Complain Complain Complain.”


Contributors to “Are You Grateful?” & “Complain Complain Complain.“: 1-Attitude, the Ultimate Power 2-Max 3-DianaCA’s Metamorphoses 4-Mental Poo 5-My Thoughts 6-Baba Doodlius 7-Wake Up America 8-Life is a Roller Coaster 9-Life is Beautiful 10-pinay mommy’s love blog 11-My Happiness Haven 12-And Life Goes On for a Filipino Mom 13-Blessed Sanctuary 14-Expressions And Thoughts 15-Memories by Jenn 16-Reminiscence of My Adventures 17-In the Life of Mne 18-Juliana’s Lair 19-Pinay Wahm 20-Lucid Creativity 21-Winged Words 22-Irresistible Fascinations 23-A Little Time 24-See Me For What You Will 25-Greatest Reviews 26-ETC ATBP 27-Gandacious 28-We Are Family 29-Journey to this thing called LIFE 30-http://www.rajeshrana.net/ 31-http://www.rajeshrana.com/ 32-BaReFooTeD Me 33-Uncomplicated 34-Points of View 35-Pride & Prejudice 36-Colorful World 37-Nora’s Notes 38-A Daily Walk With Bill & Gina 39-Strange but True 40-Everything Under The Sun ( Beth Rebokon ) 41-Kaleidoscope 42-Fil-Oz Blog 43-http://oscar-vg.blogspot.com/ 44-Comedy Plus 45-Blogging by Sandee 46-Soul Meets World 47-Mae’s Memoirs 48-Beyond the Rave Reality 49-Amori, poesie, arte, chat by Hanna 50-Attached at the Hip 51-Carver’s Sight or is that Site? 52-Empress Reviews 53-Simple Pleasures In My Heart 54-Lourdes’ mia 55-A Grateful Heart 56-Majorsleepyhead 57-Scrappy n Happy in Ohio 58-CHOC MINT GIRL 59-Extraordinary Things 60-ZOOROPAZOO 61-BeNolSatuEm 62-As The World Turns 63-Your Caring Angels 64-Life Is Wonderful To Know Everyday 65-Pea in a Pod 66-Little Peanut 67-Creative in Me 68- Sugarmagnolias 69-Me and Mine 70-Mommy Talks. Wife Stories. 71-Pink and Brown Diaries. 72-Aggie Shoots. Aggie Scraps. 73-Winding Creek Circle 74-Women Explore 75 - Princess Bela 76 - My Planet Purple 77 - Our Journey to Life 78 - Princess Vien 79- My Inner Thoughts Revealed 80-You


I'm passing this to Jhong , Elaine , KCee, Luoraine and Wena

I'm # 835

Yes, my blog is listed number 835 at Million Blog List . I just recently joined this community with the tag "A blogosphere experiment ". It is a community experimenting or aiming to see how long it will take to list 1,000, 000 blogs in it's site. It's free and it's a way to promote your blog, too. So why not submit your site and join the blog's, well our, campaign... ? :)

What Are the Colors of Your Heart?

Your Heart is Blue and Green

Your heart is open and dynamic. You are flexible, optimistic, and expressive. You bring honesty and intimacy to relationships. You're good at expressing your needs to your partner.

What Are the Colors of Your Heart?

What I do...

What do you do when you're tired or exhausted? When you feel like the world is against you? When you feel like things are not always working out right?

Well, me? I cry. I pray. I write.

I cry. I cry as much as I can. I cry until either I fall asleep or until my tears run dry. It's my way of releasing the pain, the sadness, the worries and doubts, all that is negative. Crying somehow makes me feel relaxed and calm.

I pray. After releasing all the tensions I feel, I pray. I talk to God . I lift up my problems, myself, and everything to Him. I talk to Him and it makes my heart so much lighter. Talking to God gives my soul the peace that I need. A sort of calmness, serenity only God can give. I pray and asks Him to walk with me, walk me to the light.

And then I write. I write to express how I feel... How I felt... I write so I can remember... So I will remember that once in my life I came across the same kind of situation and that I was able to overcome it... So I will remember that I should be a lot stronger..

These are what I do... How 'bout you? :)